Motivation?

Alas, it is a sad time in which COVID-19 has screwed everyone over, minimal or not. There are those that lost their jobs, their homes, their lives... No matter how minimal, everyone's lives have been impacted by this pandemic.

I'm relatively glad that the only "upsetting" way it has impacted me is by freezing my salary... Like, at least I still have a job and I'm super grateful for that. It's just slightly inconvenient and annoying. But at least my rent has also remained static, so I guess I can't complain. It's just... infuriating. Makes me have no motivation to want to continue doing work. But then if I don't do my job, I'm afraid I'll get fired. Get it? It's an endless cycle.

It doesn't help that I literally can't see my friends or family now. Honestly, if I could travel, I would go home to my parents right now. But also, not really, due to personal family reasons that I don't want to be around. It's also not a good idea, considering they live halfway across the world in a timezone that is the complete opposite of the timezone I'm supposed to be in.

Still, my motivation is lacking. I'm not sure if it's my incoming period, but I'm finding people way more annoying now than usual. But I'm also getting hella bored of just watching Netflix and playing games. Like, I actually miss going out, and that's saying something, considering my extreme introvert side was rejoicing at the idea of quarantine for the first few months. Almost five months into it, and I need a little break.

I'm even considering going to LA to visit my friend, who works at a restaurant, by the way. Which means he's going out whenever he has to go to his job... Honestly, it's the only thing stopping me from going. I don't want to expose myself. But my god, I'm being driven slightly insane. I guess this is the struggles of not living close to your family, while all your friends are within (more or less) driving distance. And by driving distance, I mean they can actually drive within the United States without risking a flight to be with their family... I'm just stuck. Several thousands of miles away. What a fucking struggle.

I've never wanted to leave the United States so bad than I do now. Take me to Japan or Korea please. I just need the Asian vibes right now.